these feelings inside (Saturday, November 1, 2008, 1:05 PM)
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
here's the dian hari raya showcase at kallang cc. dangdut fever baby. haha!
i had so much fun. taking loads of pichurs. giler-giler. haha!
with mama being there, just makes things abit more happier for me. heh.












since raya has ended, i'll post the last entry on raya. hah!
dian raya outing was awesome. i had fun. right from the beginning till the end, with just the boobies having fun playing bunga api over at east coast. thanks to abang tawfiq for all the bunga api and driving us to east coast, even if it was 2am in the morning. hehe.
right from the very beginning of the outing, i kept telling myself the same thing over and over again. that is not to cry during the mintak-maaf session with the dance people. why? cause, i thought i wanted to be strong this year. wanted to try and face everything with serenity. no crying.
but the first person who made me cry was abg amin. grrr. haha! thanks ehks!
just because of those words, i started to cry. even if he put everything in a good way, i felt so [insert feeling]. i just dunch think he should say all that. klau die tak ckp, iffah pun tak nangis. hahaha!
i dunch know. it seems that almost everything inside of me has given up. dunch even feel like trying.
but i would never know. sometimes, these few little things would come unexpectantly right in front of my eyes. i hope.
all i can do now, is just to let everything go its own way. i know i have to put in some effort. but, only God knows how much effort there is left. hah.
and mintak maaf with cipah made me cry even more. worse, i tell you. haha!
for what i know, i would never want to lose my one and only best friend.
there is only five people who will be my first and foremost priority in life.
that people would be, papa, mama, izzah, nenek and of coz cipah. even if i were to have a bf, he would have to make do to be the last person in that list. haha.
klau dah jadi suami tu, lain lah. tapi, klau die buat hal, sekel aje kepale die. ataupun, bilang my mama. hahaha.















more of the pichurs over at my shutterfly. hundreds over pichurs. argh! boleh giler nak resize sumer gambar. hahah!
SHUTTERFLY
p/s: 17 more days. i dunch know why i am very scared. eekk!