happy giler babi (Monday, October 6, 2008, 9:12 PM)
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Di bangun dan tidurmu
Di semua mimpi dan nyatamuright now, i could call it my own comfort zone. heh.
just like how i want it to be. spacious, with not alot of stuff around.
thanks to papa for painting the room and hanging up all those pichurs for me. hehe.
i know it's not as nice as the sister's room. haha. i dunch have a queen's size bed as hers, since die dah bersiap-sedia untuk alam perkhawinan. hahhaha! and i dunch even have a big room as hers. mine's smaller, and mama like to dump unused stuff in my room. haha.
and my pillows, left two jer. mama dah buang sayer punyer bantal busuk. believe it or not, i was on hiatus with mama for a few days. just because she threw away my bantal busuk, without me bidding farewell to it. hahahahaha!




and so, how's raya for all of you? mine's great. with the new gadget in my hands, i am happy like crazy.
to me, raya means i could be with each and everyone of my family members. =)
with papa's side on the first day, and meeting up with mama's on the second are just the little things that i look forward to during raya.
meeting up with mama's side was good this year. happen to bump into old pichurs of me and izzah. loads of them, since both of us was nenek and atok's first grandchildren. heh.







hmm, i miss that whole lot of family, that i used to have. i missed my dearest uncles so much. they're the ones who took care of me n izzah when we're over at their place. sheesh, just miss those times. all i could do now, is pray for the best. insyallah. amin. =)













other than that, i am just happy. everything's falling into place right now.
i couldn't ask for more.
all those feelings, i'll try to put it aside. coz i know, it's not important for me. for now. =)
with my family and my babes around, things are definitely getting better and better.
it's just you, that's the missing piece. if only you're here, you could see how grown up i am right now. how happy and great things are for me.
things gonna be much more better if you're around. but i will always look on the bright side of life, just like how you always want me to. i try, atok, i try. i miss you.
and ow. biar kepo, jangan kepo-kepo. biar sebok, jangan sebok-sebok. biar pandai, jangan pandai-pandai.
it's just stupid to know, when you still run for something that has tainted you from behind. these people i call, hypocrites, plastics, melamine and segala-gala yang sewaktu dengan nye. haha.
there's no point of voicing out your pain, when you dunch even realize that you're the one who have been hurting your own self.
sometimes, i dunch even know why such people still exist.
these, have made me be more careful with the people around. never trust anyone. yeah, anyone. daymn.
but thinking back, i dunch have time to care about such things anymore. they're not important.
better lead my own life, rather than another. haha.
this is just how i want things to be you know. hehe. best, best. sumer happy, iffah pun happy.
*giggles*
p/s: dunch ask, why im happy like that. -________-