pretty this and pretty that (Friday, August 28, 2009, 11:00 AM)
im looking in the mirror and i think im liking what i see,
big, big lights shining bright like im on the teevee
this post gonna be pretty wordy. just bear with me okie.
a year back, i met my uncle's ex wife. she's doing pretty good now. got based in america and living life to the fullest. =)
while talking to her about a little something, she said this. "men, even if they're in their golden years, they are still immatured for their age. trust me! ego stands in their way!"
pretty much true ey. but i guess, they (men, boys) still have not realized about the sickening truth. haha. *eyes-rolling*
honestly, i have an ego. a BIG one.
but at the very least, i know when to put that egoism aside, so that i can learn from my mistakes, opinions & point of views from other people and so on. coz i know, i can never make a step forward if i wont accept those critisms in life.
and im a very childish person. i still cant accept that im going to be 22 this year. Haha. but i thank Allah for the health and evrything i have all this years. =)
and so, i still act as if im 2 years old. but that doesnt mean i handle my problems like a 2 year old kid. i dunch run away from my problems. only at certain situations, it made me to leave it as it is.
and i may be a very hard-headed girl. i have my own principles in life. i was brought up that way. and one more thing about me is that, i am VERY close to my sister. even if we have our bad days, she is still my sister. you try to mess with her, me going to kick u up in the ass. same goes to u tawfiq. haha.
and yes.
im pretty much thankful to the One above.
ive never regret for the things that i told you. it's the truth anyways. pretty sad that you cant accept the awful truth. pity. *shakes head*
only one thing kept me thinking. HOW, in the first place, i can ever like you.
-____-
sunshine through the rain (Monday, August 24, 2009, 2:10 PM)
too much time, too long defending
you and i are done pretending
for everything that happens in life, im sure there's a reason behind it.
why have i not achieve those little things in life, i know, it's not the end. maybe im not destined to have those little things. it's not meant to be. Insya-Allah, good things are yet to come. =)
and no, i dunch want to be sad. but maybe, be angry a little for the way i have been treated. heh.
but syukur, alhamdulillah that things happen now rather than later. think positive, i will. that phrase from Syurga Cinta, gonna be in mind every single moment right now. somehow or rather thinking about it, perks me up and got me going on again. and last but not the very least, i have to be more S.A.B.A.R. Insya-Allah.
=)
so, last friday was Hari Raya Light-Up at Taman Warisan.
came down with the Dian girls to support the Dian boys who collaborated with Sriwana this time round. =)
after that, was dinner at Zam-Zam. sheesha, true/dare sesssions, and lepak till 330am at national library. haha! budak-budak pandai jer buat macam gituks. hahah!
had so much fun. so happy, dunch know why. laughing too much, i guess. heeheehee.
























You don't stop laughing because you grow old. You grow old because you stop laughing.
-Michael Pritchard-
modern technology (, 12:38 AM)


my first webcam session with azam dwarf. haha!
sewel sikit ini anak. haha!
happy bersahur to you guys! =)
positive thinking (Sunday, August 16, 2009, 10:53 PM)
i remember when we stole the night
we’d lie awake dreaming til the sun would wash the sky
so, as promised. an update on the seoul garden session with ain and marina.
3 girls, food, camera, toilet, mirrors. haha. what else can i say.
but somehow or rather, i find seoul garden food decreasing bit by bit. ain't much variety. and they didnt even top up the empty ice-cream tubs. how to have dessert like that? chet.
and having two evil girls who kept on telling me stories about long hair, did not help me to be brave one bit. =(
called the mother to wait and not to go to bed, until i reach home safely. heehee.
sumer gara-gara korang berdua. takot kan aku lagi! hahah.
so here goes. pichurs! =)



















if you can't accept opinions from other people, that means you're a loser.
opinions, makes you a better person in life.
at the very least, you can learn and not just want things to go your very own way.
W.E.M.L.
good night everyone.
have a good week, and be happy always. =)
Insya-Allah.
DIA (, 1:14 AM)
"Kadang-kadang, Allah sembunyikan matahari.
Dia datang kan petir dan kilat.
Kita tertanya-tanya, kemana hilangnya matahari.
Rupa-rupanya, Allah memberi kita pelangi."
~Syurga Cinta~
insya-Allah.
every cloud has a silver lining. =)
i dunch want to let it break me apart. be strong, iffah.
it's never the end.
am pretty sure of this. =)
another heart calls (Friday, August 14, 2009, 4:20 PM)
You are often loved because of your outgoing and fun personality, and you like to give hugs and flirt, but underneath of it all you are lacking heart. You find it hard to love others through all the walls you've built around your heart from being hurt so much throughout life, but you want to love, you desperately want that fun, romance that you see in others, but you don't know if you can have it in your current circumstances. You want stability, but at the same time you need change. You go from one extreme to another and often feel overwhelmed when you can't figure out something. You think about your life often and how you can improve your character. You find it hard to settle, but you really want to. You just feel like you need to find that balance, that heart that you've been missing for so long. You need to love through the pain, but it's so hard. But the walls need to crumble for you to truly be YOU..
got this in facebook.
never ending (Thursday, August 13, 2009, 3:01 PM)
i wish i could fit myself in my pocket
and tie myself to a rocket
and send myself to outer space
trust [verb]
-to rely upon or place confidence in someone or something (usually fol. by in or to): to trust in another's honesty; trusting to luck.
-to have confidence; hope: Things work out if one only trusts.
a friend posted something on facebook, and somehow, it got me thinking.
to trust someone fully is wrong, and not to trust that someone at all is also wrong. so what's the right thing to do? and nothing's perfect. you can never get it at the right amount. tsk.
and as for me, im still trying to figure out the meaning of trust. somehow, i forgot what it means. hmmm.
now, i am so tired of everything. argh. calling it quits.
tak abes-abes.
and will update on the Seoul Garden session with ain and marina, when i got the pichurs from ain sooner or laytah. heh.
can i cut my hair? heeeheeeeheeeeeee.
running out of lines (Wednesday, August 12, 2009, 4:25 PM)
but now the sun has finally had its say
i guess i feel alright
*sings*
if i was a rich girl
na na na na na na na na na na na na na
if i could have all the money in this world, i would revamp my little comfort zone to this. heeeheeheehee. macam budak-budak. deprived childhood mahhhh. =)




nice ehks? pretty fun to have a carriage as your bed. =)
but, i guess the carriage can pecah seribu kalau aku tidur kat situ nanti. hehe. so, this would be ideal for me i guess. sweet and simple. still have the princess or little girl's theme in it. =)

sukerrrrrrrrrrrrr!
and ow. it's been a while since i have a proper update. i've been busy. or maybe, just acting busy. haha. got alot of things to update. the kukup trip with izzah's dept, abg izwan's birthday celebration, the late night supper at simpang with dian and so much more. but i'll just skip all that and let's go to Akar Mekar Production by Gendrum.
to start it off, it was a daymn good production. =)
came down to support dian love since they're one of the guest artiste for the night. and not to forget ADDY CRADLE!! woohoo! but too bad, gotta know he's married. bahh. ama, kau jer lah amek die. aku taknak orang dah kahwin ah. hahaha.
then, there was Art Fazil, Raven, dikir barat performance by Anak Seni & Keris and dance performances from Commonwealth & Hillgrove Secondary. and what i like most was the drum battle between the 2 guys from Gendrum. not sure what's their name, but yeah, they were definitely good. =)
































and while im talking about this akar mekar thingy, i found something on the net about it, that really amused me to the bits and pieces. haha. thanks cipah for the info. =)
satu word jer. sanguuuupppppppppppppppppppppppp. HAHAHAHA!