batu head (Monday, November 3, 2008, 10:33 PM)
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away 
visiting the hospital during the past weekends, just made me realize that you just have to appreciate all the ones you love when they're still here with you.
yes, i do appreciate all my loved ones, but i want to appreciate them in a whole lot better way. insya-Allah.
tried my very best to stop crying when i see my cousin's beloved paternal grandmother on her hospital bed. aku chengeng, aku tahu. but it's just too much. i thought of nenek, the moment i saw her. what if i were to lose nenek? hmm. tak nak. tak nak. tak nak. semoga Allah S.W.T panjang kan umur nenek. amin.
and it got me even more teary-eyed, when i paid Adam a visit at the childrens' tower. Adam is my cousin by the way. he's a very special kid. special in his own ways.
i just felt and wished that he was given a much more fair-er life. too little to experience sucha life. but i know, there's a blessing in disguise. insya-Allah. =)
and side tracking from the main topic.
im not sure why the sudden M.I.A.
and what if it seems like neither one of us care about it? i guess, i thought about it too much. girls. hah!
maybe it's me? i dunch know. or maybe it's just my egos. daymn.
didnt i tell you that im stubborn like that. too stubborn headed.
hentak batu kat atas kepala aku pun, batu tu tak boleh pecah. kepala ni lagi keras dari batu tu agaknyer. hahahah!
just a stupid behaviour or attitude that i ought to change. since im reaching that no 21 soon. heeheehee.